The past few days.

It's been an eventful few days! I have been going nuts because I keep losing and forgetting every thing, it's ridiculous and I have no idea where my head is at. But first on Friday, Summer woke up not feeling well so I thought for the first time "oh no my baby is sick!" So I ran around all day trying to fix a problem with our health insurance and then getting her in to see a doctor. It all ended up with the doctor saying there was nothing wrong with her ears and that she just had a sore throat.
Saturday we attempted to get our passports so Joe and I can go on our honeymoon but silly me, I forgot to make an appointment. After driving around looking for a place we could just walk in to, I realized I had left my driver's license at home! I just couldn't believe it. So we shall try again on Saturday.
Sunday night after spending a relaxing day at home with family, I gave the girls a bath and brought them back to their bedroom. While dressing Summer, Autumn decided to go number 2. While naked standing the crib. Unbelievable. How could she possibly know that that was the perfect moment to do so since I couldn't leave Summer on the changing table alone in order to swoop in and avert the situation somehow.. These girls!
Yesterday started out like any other Monday. The girls and I headed off to the park for a workout and some play time and anticipated the rest of the day to go as well. I chose two new recipes off pinterest and got to work on dinner while the girls banged on pots and pans around my feet. I could swear they were right there, I could hear them moving their wagon back and forth in the doorway next to me. After moments of silence I peaked around the corner to check on them, they were both huddled around something.. I found them with an open bottle of aspirin. FREAK OUT right? Actually, I didn't (thankfully). I swatted all the pills out of their hands and did the finger swipe through their mouth, in which I found none and no trace of what I thought would look like a chewed pill. I called my mom to find out an estimate of how many pills were in the bottle so I could get an idea if they had consumed any or not. I then called poison control who connected me with 911.. The rest is a whirlwind of a blur between repeating what happened to all the different paramedics and doctors, giving their history information, and trying to maintain my composure. The twins and I have been through a fair amount of scary times, but I'd have to say I was completely terrified yesterday. Beating myself up over and over about how could I let them out of my sight long enough for them to get in to so much trouble. Thankfully all tests showed there were no toxins in their bloodstream! But that didn't stop me from laying awake all night agonizing over my poor parenting. I so badly want everything to be "just so," and it's hard to cope when things aren't the way I hope they will be.
I took my babies for a follow up appointment with their pediatrician today and she assured me there is nothing to worry about when it comes to the medicine and that I did everything right in that situation. So why do I still feel so disappointed in myself? I need to find a way to not be so hard on myself, hey maybe the babies will help me with that along the way. So even though the doctor had good news about our trip to the emergency room, she didn't have as great of news about Summer's current state of health. She felt the information the clinic gave me was incorrect, that Summer doesn't have cold symptoms but that her body may be rejecting the tubes that were put in her ears. No bueno.. As of right now we are treating with drops in hopes for improvement until we can get an appointment with the specialist. So for now we wait but I will keep you all updated =)

Hope everyone has a wonderful week, I will be spending the rest of the week making up for these past few days!